Shame

I am not used to doing this kind of things but i just need to write this down. I hate the fact of being such a shy person. Being like that is keeping me away of getting some things i want. I wish i had the courage to speak up, to say everything that is on my mind. Let all those things free. Let people know how much i know, show them i not stupid, i'm smart.
 Sometimes i ask myself if i'm doing the right thing, choosing this course. I'm pretty sure that I'm where i belong, but the problem is that I haven't found my people yet. I know this is a university and everyone is on their own, but i just need someone with whom i can rely on. Being able to be who i am, without any kind of shame, insecurity or any negative thing.
 I want things to change, and i will make it for real because as i said before, all this stuff is keeping me away from my dream, in a certain way. I like being noticed and admired for all my success. I know i have to improve and learn many things, but i do know i am good enough to get everything i want. It will take hard work, bad times, ups and downs and some people will try to bring me down, but all that will make me get through this because i'm strong enough to know the truth.

I have to focus on my dream, follow it and get it. I need determination. I want to be sure of myself, even if i am mistaken, it's ok, i'm on this earth to learn. I have no problem to admit if i do something wrong. But why is it so difficult for me to trust my feelings? my knowledge? I've been studying this for many years, i know i have all it takes to be good.

I have to change this as soon as possible because i can't go on in this way. I will work hard and try to be honest with myself. I will speak my mind whenever i want, and let people know what i think. But first, i have to learn to trust my mind, my thoughts, my feelings and be sure of myself.

If you're reading this, and you have an opinion about all this. Send me an e.mail: neeext.-@hotmail.com

Whoever is reading this, and can understand me, THANK YOU!




Todo es y nada a la vez, puede que los días se sientan infelices por el mal uso que se le dan, pero eso es culpa nuestra, la condición humana hace que todo luzca tan superficial. Yo no lo veo así, sino peor. Palabra tras palabra, efecto de ajenjo en cada sílaba, los acentos empalan los mejores sentimientos y las comas cuando resuenan se demoran más que el mismo tiempo. Tú, el experto que sólo hizo un buen intento y yo, yo mejor no digo nada.
Los momentos se quedan en solo instantes, luz neón en mis ojos destello a tu oscuridad. Te levantas y el jardín sigue en su lugar, eso ya me cansó. Extraños pasan detrás de mi casa, algún día preguntaré sus nombres. No es el temor a ser distintos si no a ser iguales. El calor fastidia, pero el tuyo me consumió. Una practica eterna para mejorar, ya no interesa el color de tus ojos, ni la caída de tu cabello, el olor de tu cuerpo, mucho menos la humedad de tus labios. Claro, que si todo fuese más sencillo, no tendría porque escribir esto. Sólo quedaron nuestras sombras enmarcadas a la pared. La libertad se redujo en montón de palabras, al menos para nosotros. No todas las historias tienen buen final, pero contigo fue un buen clímax.
Y el dijo:
-¿Te puedo besar? -No, ve cómo andas, no hagas cosas de las que después te vayas a arrepentir -No me arrepiento de nada
-Y el me beso.
Lo bueno de los vacíos es que siempre hay algo con qué llenarlos.
Y frecuento ausencias para encontrarme. No soy tus ganas, no soy tu vecino, no soy tu salida ni tu entrada, no soy tu fuerza pero si tu debilidad, no comimos juntos pero hicimos el amor, no soy tu burla, no soy tu ambición, tampoco soy tu deseo. Hubiese querido ser más breve. Es el lánguido amor que te tengo, hasta hoy. De ahora en adelante contaré mis días y morderé recuerdos. Qué mi mente se expanda hacía el universo. Yo no pertenezco aquí.
Las letras nunca se han escrito solas.

Is this love?

Have you ever been in love? Well, not always we made the right decision. In many cases people found it difficult to settle down; we think that we are doing it right but not. At the end of the day we get  into our bed as usual, and we are completly alone. Without any kind of support. Of course not every one knows about this; So we keep it in secret at first but later on our attitudes are noticed, our face shows a smile, but deep down we want to cry our heart out.
 The last time I fall in love was a week ago, I was sure that I had found that person who I would be a long time. That person told me a lot of sweet things which made me create a world where everything was perfect. I don't really know why a person can change so soon. It was so fast that, when you are in a relationship the faster you begin, the faster it ends. That's for me.
 Nobody says it's easy, obviusly you will argue, you can have some diferences between you and your boyfriend or girlfriend but that's what makes the relationship stronger. If you are not able to face the situation when it comes to love, you'd better not be with anybody until you are ready to share your life with someone.
 The next time I live sth like this again, I will take causion because I'm not fine. This sort of thing distracts me. It is not good when you let your liabilities apart, in order to be with your pair. I can't help thinking  about the person who is really hurting me; I am not capable of concentrating in my studies, my work and my personal things. I'm making a fool of me :( I wish I hadn't fallen in love so soon; I want to be in peace and live without any kind of concern.
 I know I'll be fine, but this is a shit. LOVE is beautiful but sometimes it really hurts

Someone like you ♫ -Adele

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Inalcanzable ♫

Te siento tan distante y tan cerca a la vez,
Descifrando, tu silencio...
Y entonces me imagino dentro de tu piel,
Pero pierdo, en el intento

Y por mas que busco darte amor,
Nunca te fijas en mi,
Si supieras que puedo morir por ti,
Por ti

Inalcanzable como estrella,
Tan distante
Un amor que es imposible,
Invisible como el aire,
Eres tan inalcanzable,
Tan sublime como un ángel,
Un amor que es imposible,
Como un fuego que no arde,
Te me haz vuelto inalcanzable,
Inalcanzable...

Pervivo en la vereda de tu soledad,
Cuando alguien, te lástima,
Que ganas de decirte que no hay nadie más
Que te ame, sin medida,
Como duele verte suspirar,
Porque no voy a ser feliz,
Si supieras que puedo morir por ti,
Por ti

Inalcanzable como estrella,
Tan distante
Un amor que es imposible,
Invisible como el aire,
Eres tan inalcanzable,
Tan sublime como un ángel,
Un amor que es imposible,
Como un fuego que no arde,
Te me haz vuelto inalcanzable,
Inalcanzable...

Inalcanzable como estrella,
Tan distante
Un amor que es imposible,
Invisible como el aire,
Eres tan inalcanzable,
Tan sublime como un ángel,
Un amor que es imposible,
Como un fuego que no arde,
Te me haz vuelto inalcanzable,
Inalcanzable...
Inalcanzable...
Inalcanzable...
...Inalcanzable

I'll be watching you ♫

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break, every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play, every night you stay
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please,

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you
Every move you make, every step you take
I'll be watching you

I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you

Everytime ♫

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe

That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh


At night I pray

That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...

After all...

Strong People

 "Only strong people can smile when their hearts are breaking down"



I am one of this people because when I'm feeling terrible
I can show to my parents, friends... 
that "I'm fine" But I don't!
Therefore I can be living the worst moment in my life
but I can be smiling because I want to be happy
ALL THE TIME! 
this is my object.

Hey People!! do you have twitter?

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                                 @Neeext18

Hey! If you follow me, I'll follow you!

ERES EL AMOR DE MI VIDA ♥

Yo no se como empezo
solo se que sucedió
fue tal vez sin darme cuenta
No podia ver la luz
hasta que cerre mis ojos
y desperte pensando en ti


A veces me parece
que es todo una locura
como un sueño sin sentido
Y mientras estas lejos
te espero siempre aqui
que lo nuestro vuelva a ser
porque pude comprender

Que eres el amor de mi vida
me lo dice mi corazon que no te olvida

ahora tengo una razon para existir para vivir
y puedo ser feliz, porque ahora se

Que eres el amor de mi vida
me lo dice mi corazon que no te olvida
porque tengo una ilusion para compartir puedo decir
lo que siento es de verdad

Hoy veo el sol brillar
y en mi mente tu recuerdo
esta creciendo cada dia

Para que puedas volver
a encontrarte en mi camino
y ser el centro de mi vida
 
Quizas si te propongo
la magica aventura
de estar juntos para siempre

Que seas quien espera
en cada atardecer
y una estrella descubrir
y te pueda repetir

Britney Spears en Latinoamerica

Luego de tanto esperar la llegada de Britney Spears a nuestro país, tanto por sus fanáticos como por los curiosos con ganas de verla en vivo, todo indicaría que el gran día se acerca.

Aunque todavía no está totalmente confirmado, la Princesa del pop pisaría suelo argentino por primera vez en el mes de noviembre.

Las primeras versiones, relevadas por
Ciudad.com.ar, aseguran que Britney brindará un único show, aunque podrían sumarse más debido a la alta convocatoria, y todos ellos en el Estadio Unico de La Plata.

La cantante se encuentra actualmente de gira por varias ciudades de Estados Unidos y Canadá. Mientras que en septiembre pasará por Europa.

Según parece, el Femme Fatale Tour llegaría a Latinoamérica a mediados de noviembre y, en Colombia, ya está casi confirmado su mega recital para el sábado 26, en el emblemático Parque Simón Bolívar. Además visitaría Brasil, México, Chile, Venezuela y... Argentina, sí.

Pese a que no hay nada oficial, ya se especula con los precios que los argentinos tendrían que abonar por el preciado ticket y las entradas oscilarían entre los 250 y los 850 pesos, sin contar el Campo VIP.   


Fix you ♫ Coldplay

when you try your best but you don't succeed 
when you get what you want but not what you need 
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep 
stuck in reverse 

and the tears come streaming down your face 
when you lose something you can't replace 
when you love someone but it goes to waste 
could it be worse? 

lights will guide you home 
and ignite your bones 
and I will try to fix you 

high up above or down below 
when you're too in love to let it go 
but if you'll never try, you'll never know 
just what you're worth 

lights will guide you home 
and ignite your bones 
and I will try to fix you

Born This Way ♫

It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
'Cause you were born this way, baby

My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir

"There's nothin' wrong with lovin' who you are"
She said, "'Cause He made you perfect, babe"
"So hold your head up, girl and you you'll go far,
Listen to me when I say"

I'm beautiful in my way,
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't hide yourself in regret,
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Ooo, there ain't no other way
Baby, I was born this way
Baby, I was born this way
Ooo, there ain't other way
Baby, I was born-
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way 

Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be!

Give yourself prudence and love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth
In the religion of the insecure
I must be myself, respect my youth

A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M (hey, hey, hey)
I love my life, I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah (Love needs faith) 

I'm beautiful in my way,
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't hide yourself in regret,
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Ooo, there ain't no other way
Baby, I was born this way 

Baby, I was born this way
Ooo, there ain't other way
Baby, I was born-
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Don't be! 

Don't be drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby, you were born this way

No matter gay, straight or bi
Lesbian, transgendered life
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born to survive
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born to be brave

I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don't hide yourself in regret,
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way 

Ooo, there ain't no other way
Baby, I was born this way
Baby, I was born this way
Ooo, there ain't other way
Baby, I was born-
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

I was born this way, hey!
I was born this wayy, hey!
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way, hey!

Skyscraper ♫

Skies are crying
I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending, like we never had a chance
Do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me?
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like i'm made of glass
Like i'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper!
As the smoke clears
I awaken, and untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better to watch me while I bleed?
All my windows, still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like i'm made of glass
Like i'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper!
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear, yeah
Go run, run, run
Yeah it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like i'm made of glass
Like i'm made of paper, Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper!

Fuck You!!! ♫ Cee-Lo Green

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl i love and i'm like,
Fuck you!


Oo, oo, ooo


I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough i'm like,
Fuck you!


And fuck her too!
I said, if i was richer, i'd still be with ya
Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Fuck you!
Oo, oo, ooo


Yeah i'm sorry, i can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean i can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and i'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.

I picture the fool that falls in love with you
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend



Now i know, that i had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ass ain't cheap
.



I picture the fool that falls in love with you
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
i really hate yo ass right now


Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(so bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"this is one for your dad"
(your dad, your dad, your dad)


Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!
Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you oh!
I still love you. Oooh!

Firework ♫


Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
drifting through the wind
wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Unfaithful ♫


Story of my life, searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul ?cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man and this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek, he's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
'
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun
And put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore, anymore

And I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer
A murderer, no no no
Yeah

alguien soy yo!


Tú no sabes quien soy yo,
No sé quien eres tú,
Y en realidad, quien sabe que somos los dos
Y yo como un secuestrador te persigo por amor,
y aunque tú no sepas mi dirección,mi apellido y mi voz,
y la clave de mi corazón...

Alguien te quiere,alguien te espera,alguien te sueña
y tú sabes que soy yo,
Alguien te piensa constantemente,alguien te busca
y por fin te encontró,
alguien soy yo!

__________________________

 
Because your love your love your love is my drug ♫

I miss you ♥


We'll have halloween on christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends